what do you do
when you dont want
to be
anymore

when pain is
the only thing
that makes you real
but you cant hurt
anymore

scars that wont show
because no one wants
to look
anymore

and they close their eyes
when you place yourself
in front of their faces
you cant parade yourself
anymore

but the cuts run
so deep
out of blood and
you cant bleed
anymore

why do you bother
to cry
when no one listens
anymore

and you write poems
that cant tell half
of what you feel
anymore

when some you love leave you
without a word
and sometimes you wish
the rest wouldnt stay
anymore

but you need them still
you cant be alone
anymore

and you have nowhere
to turn
except inside yourself and
to them
theres nowhere else
anymore

a world with no punctuation
no periods
for stopping
no commas
for resting
no apostrophes
for telling
youve missed something
and it doesnt make sense
anymore

and you cant tell
which way youre heading
anymore

when a pile of paper
can be your prison
or it could hold your key
but you dont know
anymore

when you know
you cant see or hear or talk
only listen
and pour out
wordsonpage
and dreaming is the only truth
you have left
anymore

and you go on
not knowing what
to do
and the tears you shed
fill your poems
and hope is all you want
anymore